Many times when something is scary we run away. In a nightmare, our answer is always run. When we are being chased, we run to shelter. When we are scared of being alone, we run to someone. But when our own lives are scary, we cannot run away.
Sometimes in life I wish I could run far far away. Somewhere where all my problems suddenly disappear. But the thing is, no matter where I go, I will always feel the same. The other people in the problem may be far but your mind goes with you. The fact that we can’t just run away from our problems is the reason I believe life is so hard.
No one looks for pain. We as humans, are so scared of getting hurt. We are scared of heartbreak, sadness, bruises. But if we never want to endure heartbreak, then we never will love. If we never feel sad, then we will never know the joy of happiness. If we never get bruises, we would never learn how to care for them. There are reasons for everything that happens in life. Even the bad.
When life scares me I do run. I run to the people who I know love me. The people that know what I need and know how to take care of me. My parents. My best friend. In times that I cannot bare the nightmare that I feel I live in at that moment, I know I would say one thing to her and she would run miles for me. And I know that whenever she needs me, I will run to the end of the earth to make her nightmare a magical dream.
The beauty you find in times you can’t run is that you learn who you can run to. You learn who cares. You learn the people who understand you. I have now realized how many people I did not matter to. And it did make my life scary. It made me feel as though I was locked in a dark room alone. But what I learned was that I was not alone. I focused so much on the people that left rather than the people that stayed. I constantly focused on the running away than the running to.
I do not know where I would be without those I run to. I have learned the hard way of who my people are and I am thankful each and everyday for them. Especially the one I am lucky enough to call my best friend. She has taught me how live and how to stay soft in this hard time. She brings sunshine into my world even when she feels like the night sky. My world is still turning because of her pure heart.
It is so hard, but we all must learn to soak in our pain. In our suffering. Because nothing lasts forever. Not pain. Sometimes not happiness. But when we learn this and begin to live through the ups and downs, we become stronger and stronger. Run to feel free. But never run to leave the dark. You will never become stronger if you always get out. Learn to love every emotion.