Summer. That word always made my shoulders immediately go down and my smile go higher. This year has been the hardest year in my life so far. I have wanted a break since school began. Each school break I had, was no break at all. I always blamed it on an occurance that happened. Which could be blamed in some cases, but others I just hated life. I always found a way to go into a negative direction. I never saw positives in anything.
But the thing I ignored was that you cannot just take a break from anxiety. You cannot just take a break from depression. You cannot just take a break from your brain. The break never was meant to be physical, it was always mental.
Now that life is coming to a physical break. From school. From a monotonous day. From cold weather. It is a new time in life. A time to cleanse.
My happy place is always under the sun. Feeling the warmth. The calming aspect of it shining down on me. That is when I feel alive. It is in those moments I revive.
This summer is a time in my life that will be very special. A break. Not from my mind but entirely focusing on my mind. I will hold on to the small things in life. I will not hold onto my past negatively. I want to cleanse all of the dirt and soot that have been stuck in each pore of my body and start anew.
This summer I want to be special for each person reading this right now. I want you to find your happiness. I want you to go lay down under the sun and see how it feels on your body. On your skin. I want you to stay up late and see how beautiful a summer night is. I want you to go somewhere freeing. Go there and scream. Scream out all of the year. Move on. Do not hold on to the past. A cleanse from all hate and all of the weeds growing through us. Pull the weeds and start to love.
Breaks are not just meant for stopping. They are for evolving.
xoxo
Sky