Summer. That word always made my shoulders immediately go down and my smile go higher. This year has been the hardest year in my life so far. I have wanted a break since school began. Each school break I had, was no break at all. I always blamed it on an occurance that happened. Which could be blamed in some cases, but others I just hated life. I always found a way to go into a negative direction. I never saw positives in anything.
But the thing I ignored was that you cannot just take a break from anxiety. You cannot just take a break from depression. You cannot just take a break from your brain. The break never was meant to be physical, it was always mental.
Now that life is coming to a physical break. From school. From a monotonous day. From cold weather. It is a new time in life. A time to cleanse.
My happy place is always under the sun. Feeling the warmth. The calming aspect of it shining down on me. That is when I feel alive. It is in those moments I revive.
This summer is a time in my life that will be very special. A break. Not from my mind but entirely focusing on my mind. I will hold on to the small things in life. I will not hold onto my past negatively. I want to cleanse all of the dirt and soot that have been stuck in each pore of my body and start anew.
This summer I want to be special for each person reading this right now. I want you to find your happiness. I want you to go lay down under the sun and see how it feels on your body. On your skin. I want you to stay up late and see how beautiful a summer night is. I want you to go somewhere freeing. Go there and scream. Scream out all of the year. Move on. Do not hold on to the past. A cleanse from all hate and all of the weeds growing through us. Pull the weeds and start to love.
Breaks are not just meant for stopping. They are for evolving.