Since I have started this blog, many people ask me questions. But the question I tend to get most often is, “How are you always so happy?” That question either shocks me or confuses me. I always answer with saying, “Believe me I am not.” It is impossible for people to be constantly happy at all times. Even without having a mental illness, life is not always easy.
The truth is I am happy because I am alive. Even when I still am struggling, I know that one day I will be happy again. I always hated seeing pictures on social media that had the quote, “You choose your own happiness.” I always thought well I want to be happy, it is not like I am choosing to be depressed. But now I see how true that quote is.
Now when one asks me that question, my answer is that I want to be happy. That is why it seems that I always am. Even in bad situations I believe there is good. Something good will happen if you want to believe in it. I never thought that I would ever be here, alive and happy. But here I am. Alive. Living. Trying my best to always see the beauty.
Lord knows that life has its struggles. I have had struggles. But I love dancing in the rain now. I love being in the dark and seeing the little glowing light of happiness. Because I know that one day the sun will shine. And that light that I see will be the brightest.
So you do not always have to be happy. But you are not always going to be sad either. There are ups and downs in everything. But when you are down remember, it will not be like this forever. Choose how you want to live. Choose happiness.