I have written this blog every year, on this day, the day that I decided to live. And each year my goal has been to let all of my readers know that suicide is not the answer. I mean if I did not make it past sixteen, I would have missed out on the most … Continue reading For My Friends, You Saved My Life
New Year, Same BS, Stronger Me
There were many things I learned within the past year. Like how gross cleaning up dog puke is. I learned certain actions that trigger my episodes. I learned how to let go, and how to let in. I learned how gross we were before a pandemic hit. (Bowling???? All of our fingers in the same … Continue reading New Year, Same BS, Stronger Me
How I Have Been Feeling
If there was one word to describe how I have been feeling lately, it would be drained. To be honest, I am sick of it. I am sick of feeling sick. I am sick of the meds. I am sick of the psychiatrist appointments and talking to my therapist. I am sick of feeling numb … Continue reading How I Have Been Feeling
A Takeover With Charles Fox
I was diagnosed with bi-polar in 2017, I can’t remember which type of bi-polar because I didn’t think that was important. As I read the definitions from Google now, I could see myself belonging in 1 then but 2 now. I think that’s a major point, because I could interpret that there is no difference … Continue reading A Takeover With Charles Fox
Be Kind to You
Life scares me. More than I would like to admit. I never really notice how scared I am, until life hits me. When it's too late to tell someone I love them one more time. When sickness overcomes health. When sadness turns into suicide. When protests turn into wars. Life changes within seconds, and all … Continue reading Be Kind to You
What Mood Swings REALLY Look Like…
I often say I am an "open book." Whether it be me being the loudest in the room or me sharing my struggles in life on social media, I have always been a very real person. But the one thing that I feel I could be a million times more real on is, what mood … Continue reading What Mood Swings REALLY Look Like…
Do Better. (#BLM)
From day 1, I was taught to always be kind. I was taught to stick up for children that were being bullied on the playground. Never have I lost the belief that when people are being mistreated, I will make sure to help in anyway I can. But I was not the only child taught … Continue reading Do Better. (#BLM)
Trying to “Just Be”
I never believed in "bettering" yourself in this time of being quarantined. I knew from the start that being isolated from people I love and places I love, would put me in a depressed state. So each day I have been taking it one day at a time. And there are definitely days where I … Continue reading Trying to “Just Be”
Love In The Eyes of The “Mentally Ill”
Who do most people not go to for love advice? Probably a nineteen year old girl who is diagnosed with mental illnesses. But I do not really go by what people normally do so of course I decided to take matters into my own hands and write about love. Or the closest thing you can … Continue reading Love In The Eyes of The “Mentally Ill”
Please Do Not Kill Yourself
There are so many different ways to say one thing. You can use your eyes. You can do an action. You can put the words in a different order and you can choose a different sentance. You can not say something at all, but tell people exactly what you mean. But will they understand the … Continue reading Please Do Not Kill Yourself