The State I’m In

People have always told me that I am an eighty-year-old woman stuck in a young girl’s body.  I had my life planned out. I was never a person who didn’t know what my life looked like. I knew the niche categories my love fell into and knew the depths of my heart early in life.  I evenContinue reading “The State I’m In”

For My Friends That Didn’t Make It, Happy Birthday

“As the humanitarian of the zodiac, Aquarians are committed to creating a large-scale impact from the ground up, which means these revolutionaries are all about macro change. They aspire to move radically through social progress, so if they seem disinterested, it’s likely because the issue at hand isn’t community-focused. Shifting the conversation from “me” toContinue reading “For My Friends That Didn’t Make It, Happy Birthday”

Ode To Teen Girls

It feels like just yesterday I was sitting in the passenger seat of my mom’s car saying, “I want to find a boy like Morrissey one day.” And her reply being, “Sky, you know he’s gay, right?” I didn’t. And honestly I am pretty sure he calls himself “human-sexual” now, so gay might not beContinue reading “Ode To Teen Girls”

I Don’t Fit In A Box

Before I created this blog and titled it, I wanted my first clothing line to be called “Unlabeled.” I decided that at about age thirteen. That just so happens to also be the age I started getting really into tumblr and the more artistic side of social media. At that time, I just thought itContinue reading “I Don’t Fit In A Box”

A Takeover With Charles Fox

I was diagnosed with bi-polar in 2017, I can’t remember which type of bi-polar because I didn’t  think that was important. As I read the definitions from Google now, I could see myself  belonging in 1 then but 2 now. I think that’s a major point, because I could interpret that there is  no differenceContinue reading “A Takeover With Charles Fox”

Be Kind to You

Life scares me. More than I would like to admit. I never really notice how scared I am, until life hits me. When it’s too late to tell someone I love them one more time. When sickness overcomes health. When sadness turns into suicide. When protests turn into wars. Life changes within seconds, and allContinue reading “Be Kind to You”

Do Better. (#BLM)

From day 1, I was taught to always be kind. I was taught to stick up for children that were being bullied on the playground. Never have I lost the belief that when people are being mistreated, I will make sure to help in anyway I can. But I was not the only child taughtContinue reading “Do Better. (#BLM)”

Trying to “Just Be”

I never believed in “bettering” yourself in this time of being quarantined. I knew from the start that being isolated from people I love and places I love, would put me in a depressed state. So each day I have been taking it one day at a time. And there are definitely days where IContinue reading “Trying to “Just Be””

Life Happens in Seconds

It is not until we cannot live our lives anymore, do we wish for life to happen. Our world is paused right now. Our lives are solely based on surviving rather than living. For most people, this time in our lives is scary and overwhelming. There is so much we wanted to do. We missContinue reading “Life Happens in Seconds”

Human, In Full Form

“You are not stupid, just human. You are very human. It is cool. It is cool to be human, everyone else tries to be perfect and perfect is not human. Emotion and vulnerability and mistakes and the good and bad are human. I think you haven’t been around the right people that’s all. We haven’tContinue reading “Human, In Full Form”

In A Year’s Time

I started this decade out as a 9 year old catholic school girl. I am now ending it as an 18 going on 19 year old art student. As time has no choice but to keep going, we have no choice but to follow along. So as long as I am here while a newContinue reading “In A Year’s Time”

Saving My Solitude

I often get caught in the idea that being alone and being lonely is the same thing. For so long in my life I have been dependent on other people. Especially in the years that I struggled with my social anxiety, I could not even leave the house alone. But even as I strengthened myContinue reading “Saving My Solitude”

Look Up

I’ve learned that saying I am ugly everyday more than once will never let me soak in my self-love. I’ve learned that getting out of bed is the most important goal one should have each day. I’ve learned to love others even when they do not love me as much back, because I may beContinue reading “Look Up”

I Will Not Give Up

It was only two years ago that I did not believe I would be living to that night. It was only a year ago that I did not think I would be graduating high school. It was only months ago that I thought about ending up in college. And now I am in my secondContinue reading “I Will Not Give Up”

Get help

I do get hungry for times when I am fed by the sun hitting my eyes. Then sometimes the hunger turns into starvation and my soul lacks life. It gets stuck and I begin to see no sun, no light. My nutrients for life lacks, suffers. As I wilt away into a star that isContinue reading “Get help”

Keep Your Spirit

I was once told I was broken Like a glass that shatters when it lands after flying through the air I was once told I was heavy they said they could handle but the handle broke and there I was again falling holding the handle that they once had I was once told I wasContinue reading “Keep Your Spirit”

I Haven’t Cried Today

I haven’t cried today. I haven’t bled. I haven’t dwelled in darkness. I saw a bird. I saw the sun. I saw a smiling face. Tomorrow it will all happen again. I will wake up and know that all is right.  All is true.  The littlest things are our most precious treasures. I used toContinue reading “I Haven’t Cried Today”

The Rising of Me (and You)

I don’t believe my journey of life really started until I was fourteen.  Of course I still was living from ages 0 to 13 but they were more of passing periods.  Two minutes of running into people, getting lost, and dropping books. The summer of fourteen.  Week after week of pushing myself to do things IContinue reading “The Rising of Me (and You)”

Beautiful Mistakes

I was sent to a hospitalization program because I was needing perfection.  I was not perfect.  I didn’t think I was pretty.  I didn’t think I was kind.  I don’t look like the girls in magazines or the girls on T.V. My high school experience was not like an episode of That 70s Show. MyContinue reading “Beautiful Mistakes”

To Be Influenced

Me being the crazy person I am, I know the trends of today like the back of my hand.  The trending hashtags.  The trendy words or phrases to say.  The trendy ways to act.  The trendy people.  We are all surrounded by them 24/7 on social media.  My question is always, am I being myselfContinue reading “To Be Influenced”

Poems of My Soul

Throughout my time in the partial hospitalization program, I wrote poetry.  It was grounding.  It helped me put how I feel into words.  I decided that I was going to share the feelings I had then versus the feelings I have now.  My poetry journal became a sea of poems that when from dark toContinue reading “Poems of My Soul”

I Want to Live

If you know me, you know how worried I get when people say “kms.”  It is a term that is used too often that I do not think people even realize the hardness of those words put together. “Kill myself.” Me, being a seventeen year old girl growing up in this crazy society, I amContinue reading “I Want to Live”

My World Right Now

Lately I have been struggling.  I have been trying so hard to not end up in the place I have been before.  But one day this past week, I was almost there again.  Instead of doing all of the things I have learned through my journey, I sulked.  I scared myself and allowed myself toContinue reading “My World Right Now”

The World of Social Media

I remember the first time I posted an Instagram picture. It was a quote from Marilyn Monroe. “Imperfect is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.” After I posted that picture I immediately wanted to post another one and another and another. But my friends told me thatContinue reading “The World of Social Media”

In My Head

The things I tell myself when I realize I am in a dark place: You got out of here once, you can do it again. People love you. Look at your legs, arms you have skin and bones for a reason. Love them. Love you. Put down your phone, it makes everything worse. Look upContinue reading “In My Head”

Path of Self-love

I tend to feel uncomfortable when I say I have a blog.  “Bloggers” are usually the people who have the perfect Instagram and look like they have their life together.  My friends always joke saying, “So Skyla when will you be selling tummy tea and only be taking pictures in front of white walls?”  BelieveContinue reading “Path of Self-love”

Choose to Be Happy

Since I have started this blog, many people ask me questions.  But the question I tend to get most often is, “How are you always so happy?”  That question either shocks me or confuses me.  I always answer with saying, “Believe me I am not.”  It is impossible for people to be constantly happy atContinue reading “Choose to Be Happy”

Phases of Life

We all want to be seen as someone in high school.  Whether it is the life of the party or the wallflower, we all have a certain way of living that makes us who we are.  But we all go through different phases of our lives.  Growing up, who I wanted to be was alwaysContinue reading “Phases of Life”

El Condor Pasa

We as people live by time.  We are surrounded by the timing of every aspect of our entire lives.  So how do we not worry about the future?  Or get over the past? Being not focused on time seems pretty impossible.  For me, I constantly think of the future.  I get nervous about events thatContinue reading “El Condor Pasa”

A Mental Cleanse

Summer.  That word always made my shoulders immediately go down and my smile go higher.  This year has been the hardest year in my life so far.  I have wanted a break since school began.  Each school break I had, was no break at all.  I always blamed it on an occurance that happened.  WhichContinue reading “A Mental Cleanse”

May is Mental Health

The worst thing to do in life is hide how you feel.  For years and years I have pushed my true feelings back so I can stay the happy person I always felt I was.  But there was a big problem in doing this.  I pushed the horrible feelings back which made them grow andContinue reading “May is Mental Health”

To Trust

I have always gone by my heart instead of my mind.  I think with my heart.  I live through my heart.  And I think I always will. But when you live through your heart, it breaks much easier.  I have lost many people both through life and death.  When my journey in the hospital firstContinue reading “To Trust”

Do it Anyway

I was sitting in the car with my best friend on Saturday.  Like everyday, I was crying.  We were going on about the things we both have been through.  The good, the bad, the beauty, and the sad.  She then told me this quote: “People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. IfContinue reading “Do it Anyway”

You Only Live Once

My go-to saying has always been “yolo.”  I loved the idea of how you only live once, so live your life.  But my mom would always say my version of yolo was “you only live once so be careful and don’t die.”  Which honestly was true.  My anxiety was such a huge aspect of myContinue reading “You Only Live Once”

To Be Nice. To Be Kind.

There is a difference between being nice and being kind.  I never really thought there was.  So many people use these two words interchangeably when really there is one aspect we do not realize separates them. We are always told to be friends with nice people.  We are always told to be nice.  Being niceContinue reading “To Be Nice. To Be Kind.”


I have gotten really good at hiding my flaws. Clothes that hide my muffin top. Concealing the tiny red dots of skin that appear on my face. Dark nail polish so I look more put together. Sweaters and pants on the days I am too drained to shave. Dry shampoo, dry shampoo, do not letContinue reading “Imperfectionist”


I was sitting on the couch across from my therapist this past Wednesday.  I was going on about my life and how I had only six weeks left of my Junior year of high school.  I was going on about the work I have accomplished after missing a month of school.  I was going onContinue reading “Everyday”

This Is My Voice

I never was quiet in my life.  I laugh loud.  I talk loud.  I dress loud.  A lot of what creates me is loudness.  But I have never really felt heard.  I always kept my opinions to myself in person.  I was always a people pleaser that never wanted to hurt anyone. I may beContinue reading “This Is My Voice”

An Empath’s View

Ever since I was little I have been sensitive.  Not in the way that when people say something to me, it breaks me.  But in the way that when I saw other people hurting, it was the worst pain I could feel.  I always have felt other people’s pain and I never knew why.  SometimesContinue reading “An Empath’s View”

Takeover #1: Isabel

First off, thank you for all the love on mine and Skyla’s #halfthestory posts. (If you haven’t checked them out yet, what are you doing!? @isabeltuisl & @stillskyy on instagram!!!) It was not at ALL for pity or to make you feel bad for me. So many people have reached out to me because ofContinue reading “Takeover #1: Isabel”

Love and Loss

Do you know that saying, “I have loved. I have lost”?  Well, to me, those two things go hand in hand.  Loss is one of the hardest things anyone has to go through in life.  I wish that it didn’t exist, but it does.  This year has been filled with the most and hardest lossesContinue reading “Love and Loss”

Living vs. Surviving

There are moments in time where I feel that breathing is a difficult task to conquer.  I feel there is a haze over my eyes where I only see bad, no good.  When I ask myself a million questions because I feel that my world is ending.  “Why does this happen? Why don’t I haveContinue reading “Living vs. Surviving”

Vulnerability and Its Power

“It has been one of the greatest and most difficult years of my life.  I learned everything is temporary. Moments. Feelings.  People.  Flowers.  I learned love is about giving.  Everything.  And letting it hurt.  I learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to be cold in a world that makes itContinue reading “Vulnerability and Its Power”

Dear Mean Girls…

Thank you.  Thank you for making me find myself.  If you hadn’t forced me out of your lives, I wouldn’t be the strong person I am today.  Thank you for making fun of the way I dressed, it empowered me.  Thank you for never talking to me again, for I might be still stuck inContinue reading “Dear Mean Girls…”

Body Love

I have been a dancer my entire life.  When I mean my entire life I literally am almost 100% certain I was dancing in my mothers’ womb.  I was always dancing growing up. The amount of pictures I have of my five-year old self in sparkly costumes with my big belly hanging out of itContinue reading “Body Love”


Is it possible to love and hate something at the same exact time?  I don’t know what the answer would be but something that I do love and hate is change.  Change.  When I hear that word it either makes me start tensing from my toes to my head or it makes me jump forContinue reading “CHaNgE”

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