There are so many different ways to say one thing. You can use your eyes. You can do an action. You can put the words in a different order and you can choose a different sentance. You can not say something at all, but tell people exactly what you mean. But will they understand the full meaning?
From the time I knew what the word suicide was to the present day, I have heard every different way of someone telling me not to kill myself. From the time we first realize this earth is not filled with rainbows and butterflies, we learn to not kill ourselves. Never once was I told, “Do not kill yourself.”
We are fed this suicide information from the moment we could spell the word. And we know not to. Believe me we do. And many times you can tell me to stay alive while I nod and smile, but very rarely do I believe you. I have lost the meaning in many words, in many slogans. So please let me remind you.
I know you know that suicide will only cause more pain. I know you know the steps to take when you feel depressed. I know you know not to kill yourself. But please do not kill yourself. Do not kill yourself until you learn how to fly. Without a plane. Do not kill yourself because you have not found your soulmate yet. Do not kill yourself because you have never gone to paris and it has always been a dream. Do not kill yourself because you still do not know how to do your favorite trick on your skateboard yet. Do not kill yourself because you haven’t run through a city at 2 am with your best friends. Or gone skydiving. Do not kill yourself because you still have to prove to your parents that you can live on your own. Do not kill yourself because you won’t be with your best friend. Or with the one you wish to love. Do not kill yourself because you have a mother that brought you into this world and will do anything to make you stay. Do not kill yourself, you will never be able to ask them out. Do not kill yourself because you still want to write a book. Paint a picture. Make a movie. Be in a movie. Perform on a stage. Do not kill yourself, you still have to stand up in your best friend’s wedding. Do not kill yourself, you still have to have a wedding. Do not kill yourself, one day you will be in love. Do not kill yourself, before you have seen every inch of this earth.
I am telling you something so many have said, yet so many do not see the meaning. This world is filled with too much pain and sorrow, that so many of us think we cannot take it. Yet here we are, still living through our hardest days. This world is filled with beauty that pain cannot even ruin. And when you feel like the end is near, remember the faces and moments that aren’t worth letting go.
xoxo
Sky